My Life Uncensored

How Things Are So Far...

Mon, 06 May 2013 10:58:11 -0400

Today marks the day that I return to putting my thoughts down. Some things came to pass; women came and went. At the moment, I am “seeing”/”talking to another woman.

She is a bit older than I am (by about 3 months) and she is a “professional” photographer. We have gone out on a couple of dates (so far, but I’m not really holding my breath for any subsequent dates) and so far, I like what I know about her. We became intimate and we’re more comfortable with each other.

The one thing that I am really surprised (that I’m still learning about the American culture) about is that she is the kind of woman that is scared and nervous about relationships. She doesn’t like thinking of the future. She’s a living in the present moment kind of person so at this moment, we are just having fun when we get together. She was together with a guy for 10 years and from what I can tell, when she loves someone, she loves him with her all (though she’s scared of the institution of marriage). At the present moment, she just wants to have fun, rebuild her photography business, and upgrade her equipment.

The one thing I can proudly say she has done for me is that she has reignited my passion for photography. I’ve looked at her portfolio and she is a very talented photographer. I’m sure that came with years of experience. She has vision though her deliver and end product is a bit rough and somewhat cliched. This made me want to take my hobby and become a pro. I’ve found a website called photography life.com that teaches noobs like me how to operate a camera. It works for me because the editor uses a Nikon and I’ve been wanting to learn more about my d40x. As soon as I get the time, I will create a blog that will document my journey from amateur to (maybe) professional.

On Hold...

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 05:19:37 -0400

I was going to finish up my story from last time but things have changed. My point of view in all of this has changed drastically.

People have tells; they do something that tells me what or how they view something or how they feel about something. Thinking back to all of the things that have happened, I can see consistency about the tells of women.

In general, I know that women won’t use the name of the person that they aren’t attracted to. They generally would just say “hey” or “you” when seeing the person. This is a huge tell.

Think about all the times that you come across the woman you’re interested in and they just refer to you as “hey”. Happens to me all the time.

Psychologically, I think they use the generic term(s) since they don’t see you as a person of value; they don’t see you as a person of value or interest.

There is a woman though that uses my name although I think she’s an exception to this rule. This woman is fluent in a few languages and she’s not a native English speaker. I think she was taught (like me) to refer to people by their name because it’s polite.

This woman is good friends with my best friend and he thinks that she would make a good girlfriend for me (though she is young). He keeps telling me that there are times during their conversation that she talks about me. He informed me that ultimately, she is interested in me though she doesn’t want to take the chance of taking it to the next level because she values me as a friend. She seems to think that if we ever get into a relationship and things don’t work out, she will lose me as a friend.

I just shake my head and laugh; I’m always being seen this way. I would make a good friend but not enough to be a good boyfriend.

I guess time will tell but I’m not anticipating nor expecting anything to come from this. Like the saying goes, “believe half of what you hear”. I take that to heart as another person is saying this to me rather than her.

Reality couldn't be farther from the dream.

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 05:53:06 -0400

There are people that think that a dream is a window into the future. I’ve had dreams which turn into reality but I wouldn’t exactly call myself psychic. It might be just a coincidence or deja vu telling me that I had dreamt that exact moment. Whatever your belief is about dreams, there will be times that things happen in a way where it could come true.

Tuesday morning, as I got home from work, I had sent a message to Ms. TwinFish through a social networking site. I was prepared to be ignored and be thought as a psycho after hitting the send button. Removing the message from my mind, I fell into a dreamless slumber.

The following morning, I awoke to a pleasant surprise. I had received a message from Ms. TwinFish and she took my message positively. This was an unexpected turn of events. I had thought that due to the Grand Canyon-esque size of a gap in communication between us, at the very least, she wouldn’t reply back.

I took the opportunity to reply back with the contents of the note I had wanted to give to her in which she also wanted to reconcile. At that moment, I was happy and thought it was the end of my interaction with Ms. TwinFish for the day. I had thought that since we have reconciled, it’s best to not push since it might’ve been the constant texting to Ms. TwinFish which started the gap between us in the first place.

I was in the middle of my to do list when I received another message from Ms. TwinFish. In shock, I opened the message and one word was asked: “Coffee?”. I took it as an invite and replied that I had a busy schedule and might have time later that night. She stated that there is a possibility for it later tonight. I grew happier that there was a possibility of meeting with Ms. TwinFish. I continued on with my tasks.

One of the tasks I had was to go to work to do some training and also to drop off my benefits sign up sheet. On my way in the door, I had received yet another text from Ms. TwinFish to which I couldn’t reply due to my late arrival. After I had finished the training, I was speaking with my best friend and replied to Ms. TwinFish. My schedule was wide open due to me finishing my to do list. She later replied with wanting to meet at the coffee place. I felt myself grinning as I read the text from her. I must have read it 4 or 5 times before I replied. By then, my best friend was curious why I had a “shit eating grin” on my face. I informed him of what I had covered in the previous post and he smiled the more I went into the story. At the end of my story, he stated that in his opinion, Ms. TwinFish’s reaction was a good thing and he wished me good luck. Before I left, he asked me what she looked like so I pulled her up on a social networking site. He looked at the picture and grinned. I then asked him why it was his turn to have the “shit eating grin”. He stated that she looked beautiful, he knew her, and that she was nice. I told him that I had thought the same thing as I went to my car to meet up with Ms. TwinFish.

I had arrived at the meeting place too early and decided to stay in my car in order to charge my phone. I waited for a bit while playing games on my phone, when I looked up and I saw Ms. TwinFish entering the coffee shop. I unplugged my half-charged phone from the charger and walked into the shop. As I walked in, my eyes instantly locked on to Ms. TwinFish. This image is what plagues my mind for the past few days. Having the real person in front of me is….

[I’LL CONTINUE WITH THIS STORY WHEN I GET BACK HOME ON MAY 1!!!!]

Do some dreams become reality?

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 10:15:17 -0400

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on my blog. As some of you may notice, one of the tags for this entry is called “TwinFish Saga”.

I’ve mentioned a Ms. TwinFish in a couple of my previous posts. The reason for the new tag and the title of this post is due to a dream I had a couple of days ago.

I don’t remember much about the dream I had. I just know that Ms. TwinFish was in it. I remember spending time with her but I don’t remember much of what we did. All I remember was that we ended up holding hands in this dream. In the dream, as we held hands, Ms. TwinFish held my hand tightly as if she knew we were holding hands. I saw her look at our intertwined fingers then look into my eyes and she had a smile on her face. When I woke up, I wondered why I had a dream of her.

For the next couple of days after the dream, I have been seeing more of her. The more we cross paths, the more my eyes get drawn to her. What is this fascination with Ms. TwinFish all of a sudden?

Today, I felt my eyes get drawn to her. We had a couple of brief conversations when our paths crossed. She had the same smile as I had in my dream. I find her smile soothing and it makes me smile.

I find myself looking at her and if she’s not in my field of vision, I find myself looking for her. I notice that my eyes get drawn to her eyes; I try to clear my head when I find myself getting lost in them. I get drawn to the way her shoulder length hair moves as she turns her head; my fingers twitch as I see each strand move. I grin as I observe the times in which she has a somewhat half smile on her face. The feeling of her slender fingers felt in my hand as I observe the way her slender fingers are intertwined at times. At times, I hear her laugh or her voice as I look at her. All I know is that I am fascinated by her, I want to spend time with her, to find out why I’m so fascinated.

Today, I wrote a little note on small piece of paper intending to give it to her. I had no opportunities to give it to her. Part of me was a bit hesitant to give it to her; imagining her shaking her head, refusing in receiving the note.

I honestly want to get to know her, to spend time with her, to be as inquisitive as she is. I noticed that she likes to ask a lot of questions and I find it fascinating and charming. She has a curious soul; hungry for answers which is very similar to mine. I guess we will only see if anything develops or it will just return to being cordial with each other.

I’m in an incredibly great mood today despite not having much sleep. I saw Ms. Hepburn today...

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 17:29:10 -0500

I’m in an incredibly great mood today despite not having much sleep. I saw Ms. Hepburn today and she’s making me smile.

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Thu, 09 Feb 2012 23:17:52 -0500

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Wed, 08 Feb 2012 20:12:08 -0500

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Wed, 08 Feb 2012 17:06:32 -0500

Watched Just Go With It and now watching Red. Bruce Willis is a badass.

Tue, 07 Feb 2012 11:46:28 -0500

Watched Just Go With It and now watching Red. Bruce Willis is a badass.

EVERY BRO NEEDS AT LEAST ONE! BTW, Ms./Mrs. Megan Longpre is...

Mon, 06 Feb 2012 19:03:00 -0500

EVERY BRO NEEDS AT LEAST ONE! BTW, Ms./Mrs. Megan Longpre is HOT!

brotips:

Brotips Apparel: Season I

Coming Feb. 8th/2012.

Available at www.brotips.com.

Photography

E-Store and individual photography/shots taken by Sam Houston (check out his photography here!)

Lookbook and group shots taken by Wynston Shannon.

Editing by Sam Houston, Wynston Shannon, and Oliver Houston.

Models

TL: Brotip #39 modelled by Olivier Duguay.

TM: Brotip #7 modelled by Kenzie Moore.

TR: Brotip #93 modelled by Madeleine Lucke.

ML: Brotip #1 modelled by Megan Longpre.

MM: Brotip #1093 modelled by Olivier Duguay.

MR: Brotip #23 modelled by Megan Longpre.

BL: Brotip #1068 modelled by musician Kyle Vojdani (check out his music here!)

Creative Direction

Creative direction led by Andrew Vojdani.

**Special thanks to everyone who helped make this the dopest apparel release to come to tumblr, social media and the world. These people include Andrew Vojdani, Kyle Vojdani, Sam Houston, Risha S., Lindsay F., Mackenzie H., Madeleine L., Kenzie M., Megan L., Olivier D., Keavan Yazdani, Toby Root, Christine, Valerie, Dominique B., Yousef K., Jessica R., Rachel J., those two asian chicks.

BROTIPS E-STORE RELEASE ON FEB. 8TH/2012 AT BROTIPS.COM

Just watched running man episode 80. The production crew are geniuses. Can’t wait for next...

Mon, 06 Feb 2012 09:08:33 -0500

Just watched running man episode 80. The production crew are geniuses. Can’t wait for next week.

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Sun, 05 Feb 2012 21:13:35 -0500

Being Single

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 05:46:56 -0500

There are many types of single people. I guess you can categorize me as a single and loving it but still looking.

I have several interactions with women everyday and I can say that I’m not the smoothest guy out there but I’m most definitely sincere and honest.

Take for example an interaction I had with Ms. Twinfish today. I has found out that she had been recently been promoted. I did not congratulate her in person as I had thought she is still viewing me in a negative way(that I’m a guy that plays games). I had attempted to smooth things over with her as to no avail. I just thought I would send her a text to congratulate her in her recent promotion. Most people would reply with a thank you but I guess since she had completely broken any communication with me, no reply was sent. It makes me wonder if she took my message to her with sincerity. Time only will tell but at this point, I’ll still attempt to smooth things over but I won’t overextend my congeniality to the point where it seems as if I’m being a fool.

Another example is my ex, to which we’ll call her Ms. Penguin. Today, we had several pleasant interactions. I firmly believe she is still with her new boyfriend. Part of me thinks that this redevelopment of our interactions could lead to a rekindling of our relationship; where her new boyfriend cannot take my place in her heart. But the majority of me firmly believes that all she wants to rekindle is our friendship. I really have no hopes in getting back with her as I’m sure of how her heart and her mind works.

Another person I’ve opened a window for in my life is a Ms. Allure. Last week, we’ve had several pleasant interactions in which I felt were a beginning of at least being acquaintances. But today, there were instances in which I’m sure she had seen me. All I got today was the cold shoulder; not even a simple hello was thrown. This made me scratch my head and shrug my shoulders.

All these interactions definitely gives the the “single and loving it” a glaring lead over the “still looking” part. Why are women such fickle creatures? Where do sincerity and even just pleasantness go in women’s personalities? I don’t believe that hormones have anything to do with it. If a person really wants to be nice or pleasant to another person, one doesn’t have to be in the right mood for it; either you have it or you don’t.

These situations remind me of a line in the movie “As Good As It Gets”.

Secretary: How do you write women so well?

Melvin Udall: I take a man and I take away reason and accountability.

Driver's High Guitar Cover

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 19:07:57 -0500

Driver's High Guitar Cover:

This chick is so sexy playing one of my favorite songs on her guitar.

Ready Steady Go! Drum Cover

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 19:06:25 -0500

Ready Steady Go! Drum Cover:

This guy just tears it up on the drum and adds a bit more flair to one of my favorite songs.

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Thu, 02 Feb 2012 04:40:01 -0500

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Thu, 02 Feb 2012 04:39:23 -0500

True dat!

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 04:13:53 -0500

True dat!

Charice - New World - Final Fantasy XIII-2 Theme Song

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 17:01:28 -0500

Charice - New World - Final Fantasy XIII-2 Theme Song:

Pinoy Pride! Charice singing the theme song to the recently released Final Fantasy XIII-2 game.

Paano Ba...?

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 04:21:16 -0500

Sa tingin ng tao, ang laki ko daw na “flirt”. Dahil lang madali akong kausap at puro babae ang nakikita nila na kinakausap ko, “flirt” na ang tawag sa akin. Sa babaeng wala akong interest, napakadaling kausapin. Pero pagdating naman sa babaeng cute, or maganda, tulala ako. Wala akong maisip na umpisahan ang usapan. Bakit kaya?